Kanggee

MOVED

2010-02-28T17:41:00.000+08:00

I've SWITCHED! NOW @ http://ballbags.tumblr.com/

check in after....

2009-12-17T00:38:00.003+08:00

check in after....

i thought i should check in here after so long. i would like for those whom i have not catch up with since i dont know ages and centuries ago to know that i'm doing fine in army and i just POP from BMT. i'm quite thankful that i came home every book out in one whole perfect piece although quite beaten in some parts of my body. this is especially my feet where i have blisters and abrasions everywhere. as weirdly as it seems , i have no idea why my legs are so badly beaten which i have countless of miraculously clear bruises everywhere while others seems to not have so much on their legs. i think i'm really accident prone and it is really starting to scares me. but whatever, i'm still alive! whats more can i wish?

i dont think i will talk much about what happened during the days of the 2 months in BMT because army is so strict and confidential about the whole keeping it to only ourselves and to protect the military secrets. well, i respect the importance of it. well also for the benefit of those who are in doubt of my survival during my BMT, i kind of enjoyed the whole 2 months of training. i need to say, the only reason why i enjoyed myself is this bunch of platoon mates that i have been with for the entire 2 months were incredibly supportive and caring of me. how much more grateful i'm to have them around me all the time giving me advices and spiritual support.

soon i will be moving on to my new unit. i'm waiting for the posting and i really do hope i get into a great one. its my only hope now.

USE SOMEBODY

2009-09-28T17:53:00.003+08:00

USE SOMEBODY

i think this the an awesome cover song to do. i'm going to put up three awesome videos of cover version of this song, use somebody by tyler hilton, paramore and pixie lott. really impressive.

and now the original

cops and robbers

2009-09-24T14:38:00.003+08:00

cobs and robbers.

as an artiste i know how depressing is learn about the people engaged in illegal activities like downloading. however, what we do know is it is still the little effort and support to us. this is what that really matters to us, isnt it?

alittle side note of what i'm just currently doing.

I have just terminated my job with UOB last friday. It was like a living hell in the office doing all those following up with customers administrative work. I'm glad that i have left that tormenting perdition to my life. I just thought why should i torture myself since i only have 2 weeks left to my enlistment. oh well, i gladly made a correct decision to leave. so whats next?...

trust me, i 'd wish so much that i have my last 2 weeks of freedom be slacking off. as many would have heard from me that i'm moving house while some hasnt. i'd say moving of house is such a exhausting painful process. every crazy little things happening to this new house make a huge pile i swear. half the time i was doing all the moving works and ad horc... ( waiting for the delivery of the furniture ... ) as for obvious reason i'm the only one free and not working. how nice right?

however, one good thing is that since i'm doing the moving, i get to make alot of decisions for the best of MY interest and for the sake of this house looking good. i like the theme i give it really... " traditionally modern". tell me, isnt such a theme wonderful? and yes i came out with it. sometime soon i will take photos of my new house and post it here or on facebook. the idea " traditonally modern " for this house is basically comprised alot of wood. wood just sounds tradition, it definitely does. while, i dont do antiques to this house despite trying to fit in the half theme " tradition" so most of the designs of the furniture i picked is very modernized.

cant wait for the completion. its still in WIP. watch back soon.

HE IS MY NEW FAVOURITE

2009-09-21T10:38:00.005+08:00

HE IS MY NEW FAVOURITE AGAIN

NEWTON FAULKNER

he is the talent that makes people goes " fuck!, you are fuck awesome"

upcoming album hits the stores soon. cant wait!

note

2009-09-16T23:11:00.001+08:00

note

A pipsqueak affection, a misanthropic thought
yes, i'm a negative...

russell brand never fails

2009-09-15T21:27:00.002+08:00

russell brand never fails

...."tonight... tonight... i know its impolite but i'll swap this for sexual rewardss...
... tonightttt i'm shagging LADY GAGA, theres no one i would rather make pregnant on this nighttt uhhhh....

I ask you do you wanna?

2009-09-13T21:36:00.004+08:00

I ask you do you wanna?

the balance of ups and downs of my life is like rolling the cars up the hill and when it reaches the peak ; you let it go and rolls in itself down the hill.

i prefer black and white.

hotel paper

2009-09-11T08:19:00.000+08:00

Hotel Paper

Massive obsession

2009-09-05T11:58:00.004+08:00

Massive obsession

my list of obsessions goes...

she looks fucking pret-eee and she fucking did her greatest old hit. fuck lord...

this is the coolest shit i said i have owned since ages ago.

newly discovered fun. listen to them. they are great.

all my obsessions are completely necessary.

2009-09-04T13:50:00.005+08:00

DJ

Push the socket wire out. pushh pushh....

( i know no one knows what i;m talking about. fuck care. )

dont blame

2009-08-30T23:35:00.003+08:00

dont blame

dont blame me, i just have very little motivation to make a post here recently. in short, there are so many things happened and i'm pretty much lazy to blogged about it let alone deal with those matters.

but only one thing... that can drive me crazy each day ...

as always you know roy, he loves uk alot. he dreams that one day he will wake up somewhere in uk not particular which state or country but just anywhere in uk. he also hopes talking a stroll down the streets and witness the many brown ancient building, churches and structures. he wishes to listen to english band everyday, going to english gigs and english theatre to watch an english play or musical. he prays everyday too that he can dress like most fashionable english would wear and not get weird stares. i tell you, this is exactly what he wants now. unfortunately, not any sooner he can realise such a ridiculous dream.

tell him, how long more does he have to wait? he really needs a firm answer. he is tired of thinking completely.

i feel bad

2009-08-22T00:29:00.002+08:00

I feel very bad...

because i haven had a fucking good laugh in a long time.
loneliness just somehow slips in slowly these days.

The September Issues

2009-08-02T14:22:00.004+08:00

The September Issues

i know this could be seen as and caught in a gayish act but something like this is educational for me at least for me in some specific ways. I don't really care what you have to say but this show is more than just models putting on designers clothes and exhibiting their flawless - petite figure ( well, models all doesnt have much "boobies" so hows that perfect?)

This show is about vogue's editor in chief ( just like ugly betty ) , Anna Wintour, a ridiculously smart business woman just like Madonna. Both them are my solutary model- brainy, pretty and powerful. I love watching about others job and get inspired all the time. somehow it just inspires me.

Sooner or Later Lyrics

2009-07-22T11:53:00.001+08:00

Sooner or Later Lyrics

i dont usually post lyrics in fact i have never but this caught me and so i decided to.

Lipstick, pretty face
And maybe you'll notice something
Different about me, different about me
Yeah you talk talk all you want
You pour your heart out
But you never do see, you never do see me

You, I can't wait forever for you

Chorus:
Sooner or later
You're gonna come around
You'll be sorry
When you figure out
That I was always
Everything that you needed
Sooner or later
You're gonna wish you had me
Yeah you're gonna wish you had me

Well she don't do
Nothing for you
But mess you up
Yeah she messes you up
I'm your shoulder
I'm the quick drive over
Tryin to fix your stuff
Well I give up

You, you never see me standing right in front of you

Chorus:
Sooner or later
You're gonna come around
You'll be sorry
When you figure out
That I was always
Everything that you needed
Sooner or later
You're gonna wish you had me
Oh you're gonna wish me back so bad, so bad
Oh well it's a little too late for that

Lipstick, pretty face
And maybe you'll notice something
Different about me, different about me

Sooner or Later

2009-07-21T14:30:00.003+08:00

Sooner or Later

Michelle Branch is finally back on track and her upcoming full length solo album is a going to sound - pop-countryish. I'm so so so great is moving on as a soloist again and seems like my prediction years ago was right that The Wreckers wouldn't last. However,i have nothing against The Wreckers and i like Jessica Harp as much.

Everyone knows that I"m always crazy over Michelle Branch and like others who is also crazy over her, we have waited for almost 2 years from the last word she mention about herself moving on the road again as a soloist and working on the new album. What else can i say? I was stoked! The new single is soo catchy... i cant count how many repeats i have played back of the song- Sooner or Later

here is Michelle Branch- Sooner or Later

the Sex Brand

2009-07-18T23:29:00.004+08:00

the Sex Brand

Look what have i gotten? An autobiography, a libidinous memoir of sex, drugs and stand ups- My Booky Wook. Inexplicably inexhaustible wanker , Russell Brand, who is also a sex and drug addict is awfully truthful and frank about his life.

He is what i call a remarkable, innate talented racouteur who depicts his life in such a interesting and fun loving manner. I look up to him, respect his ball bags for his flamboyant persona. I just brieftly scanned through the first chapter of the book on the train ride home and already its stokingly addictive. what a book honestly? to being with, its too honest.

Russell, i love you so much and i swear you got me into all this addictions i have now.

FUCK YOU

2009-07-15T20:54:00.003+08:00

FUCK YOU

this is an awesome video, let alone, a fucking good song. It is fucking brilliant.
this song is meant to all fuckers out there in this world.- nothing personal ( quote from all time low)

lily allen, fuck you

are you happy now?

2009-07-12T10:42:00.000+08:00

are you happy now?

right now, i feel closest to this song

long sabbatical period

2009-07-06T22:49:00.003+08:00

long sabbatical period

brothers and sisters has become inevitably addictive after i start watching it.
you cannot underestimate this show by judging its genre- drama.
it has horribly awe-inspiring dialogues you probably wouldn't have thought of or came up with.
tbh, the story is really drama mama, despite that, for the good acting and awesome dialogues, i'll absolutely recommend you to watch it.

starting work soon...

good girls go bad

2009-06-30T11:55:00.002+08:00

good girls go bad

what else can i say besides watching it?
everything bout' this video is hot!
how about making good boys go bad?

Cobra Starship - New Music - More Music Videos

enjoy!!

senses

2009-06-29T12:00:00.002+08:00

senses

bring myself forth to the edge of the rocky cliff
exhale my heated breath
both hands stretched out
swing along with the movement of the wind
take a deeper breathe
absorb all senses coming from every directions, 360 degree
go through the senses, feel it 10,000 feet deep
stop the crazy mind
slowly rotate yourself
release the senses back accordingly the way you received.

Legendary MJ

2009-06-28T23:38:00.008+08:00

Legendary MJ

anyways, here is a little tribute to my favorite "thriller" music hero, Michael Jackson.

Michael Jackson, you are the only reason why i have picked up listening to RNB and appreciate RNBso much when i was young. I just want to let you know, i have every of your album and i can still remember the days when i was much younger, my obessed brothers were blasting your music so loudly in their rooms and i would join in and dance to your music.

I just cant believe and thinking back now, how much your music brought mircle to this world and has already become part of my childhood memory. looking back during the horrible days i experienced in my early days, blasting your music was so much of a leisure and relax. i can just sit down and listen to you the whole day. also, not to forget how i was crazy watching your mtv on telly and try out your dance steps. you are the lengendary figure that has developed deeply in our memories.

I have always wanted to say, regardless how and what you have become at the latter, you are always remembered and stayed the way your in my heart. I respect you in anyway you choose to become. I understand what you have been through and the ups and downs. i terribly regretted of your none presence now. i horribly miss you. in total stocked, i teared.

To people out there, shame on you if you ever say you love him so much now when MJ is going through his worst moments in his life, facing charges of being acused of child sexually abuse, you despised and ridiculed him. degrading him as if he has no worth. shame on you.

Legendary MJ, R.I.P and i love you forever.

what can i say, this is the weirdest and hardest week i have had since the year.

mark ronson

2009-06-28T23:19:00.009+08:00

mark ronson.

i wouldnt have servived this week without mark ronson.
to mark ronson, you have created this wonder version of " oh my god "
and lily allen is fantastic, did i mention?

here is the video, although i was really hoping to see lilly in it.
Mark Ronson - Oh My God

also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BEST FRIEND, JIMMY-ALISTAR!!!
4 years of friendship.
what can i say? you've made my life unbelievably interesting.
never experienced down moments with your presence and i deeply appreciate
enjoy your birthday, BFF.
i wont forget your treat to BROTH. next month okay?

also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEST FRIEND, GUO HUA!!!!
remembered the times we had have together as a group of friends with the rest.
all the help and support during my secondary day.
what can i say, i can never forget and appreciate you so much
enjoy your birthday!

p.s, i'm just back from KL.

some...

2009-06-17T16:36:00.003+08:00

some...

today...
some guitar
some books
some salard
some nap
some telly

sums up my day.
wow, amazingly productive
then i think again, is it really prolific at all?
what should i do tomorrow?
when can i start work.
god, please save me!

Fucking Stoked.

2009-06-10T17:23:00.003+08:00

Fucking Stoked.

holy fuck, i just need to post another 2 videos
i cant explain, i;m fucking stoked.
watch and tell me

Dance Anthem of the 80s

Dance Anthem of the 80s

Laughing With

Laughing With

enjoying it...i just have to...

KIDS', Eet

2009-06-10T15:06:00.005+08:00

KIDS', Eet

yet another music posts after so long.
i gonna tell you yet another of my favorites.
one england, one soviet union.
what do you think?
they are fucking awesome.

Kids

WARNING: NOT RECOMMENDED WATCHING IF YOU ARE AGAINST CHILD ABUSE OR INSTILLING TERRORIZING APPARITION ON A TODDLER. honestly, i don't like the video at all, the child in the video must have been fucked up by the filming of this video. again, which UK videos are not odd in anyways? however, i still love the song. oh well, you decide, whether to watch or not to?

Eet

alternatively, this is a much better video and a perfect good song. you will enjoy. everyone is recommended to watch.

heatstroke

2009-06-08T13:36:00.001+08:00

heatstroke.

i thought its time that i drop in a post here since i have nothing up for the day.

honestly, the weather has been driving up everyone's arse. It has either killed many people or caused people to fall sick. and maybe, going mad. not surprisingly, i was what the weather planned to torture. down with viral infection. a week ago, i was majoring down with whatever sickness of a flu i can possibly get. i tell you what i had, first sore throat, then viral fever, followed by runny nose, blocked nose, rashes, eczema flare. honestly, look at what this fucked up weather caused on me? i was home the entire week. now you know how much torture that was.

at this rate the weather is moving, that burning weather out there. the moment you get to the streets, what you get is heatstroke. and this is what we call global warming. i think everyone is contributing to it. thinking of the fact that everyone is blasting their air con now. taking the heat out of their room and emitting out to the surrounding atmosphere then finally up to the sky to deplict the ozone layer. everyone has to be ashamed of creating this cycle.

okay, enough of stoke bitching.

i gonna show you some stuffs that was taking a few weeks back. at least, i think i should.

yes. my graduation. i now its a little too late to blog about this now but oh well. I have finally graduated!

what's going on?

2009-05-22T10:28:00.000+08:00

what's going on?

well, judging how little i have blogged and how little i have met up with most of you; i'm guessing everyone must be thirsty for my updates or at least a proper update. I tell you what i have been doing everyday. I stalk all my favourite artiste on twitter. Have long conversation on MSN that spread throughout the whole day usually with Jimmy.

so what else?
hur hur... what else?

i would like to introduce to you a hysterical video
french and saunders - jordie and jordan
WARNING! its quite a soft porn, just be prepared to have some jobs done after watching it. and prepare a set a questions to ask. it can be anything, i swear.

what else?
hur.. what else?

so i did perform. i know there are still a couple whom i forgot or never invite to my show. I'm absolutely sorry but the show that i sing to did came in quite last minute and i haven have enough time to call up everyone. but, the least i have dropped a message. so what i did, i just make a post on facebook and twitter. so those who caught it came. no worries, i have got a good video for you.

mmm... i'm so ready for you. if you have watched the previous videos

so i did went for a one day getaway thing with Steve! It was fantastic! I have so much of a blast that i haven had since i dont know when?

alright,i dont have to speak much and photos can tell the fun, dont they?

what can i say about this? massive arms...

HAPPY and UPSET

2009-05-14T13:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY and UPSET

you can say its an absolute great balance but it seems as though to me upset has taken the precedence than happiness.

- I'm entirely upset with the fact that i can't believe my parents were not at my graduation show to celebrate with me while i have to remain jealous and ashamed at the seat looking over at my friends with the wide fantastic smile at their parents everytime they turn back at them. i'm not asking for more but simply they just dont show anything. what they love to show is their power and pride in our family which i don't see any point in that. All they should be worry , concern or get bothered about they dont, yet things that they shouldn't, they were. It is as though all they care about is their power and themselves.-

- I'm very happy because someone whom i didn't expect was free and turn up at my graduation. I really appreaciate that so much. -

- I'm very upset because of a horrible interview i went into when i thought that was the only chance of getting hire for a proper job and good position. But NO, it went horrible and demanding as it seems. -

close

BADEN!

2009-05-04T12:57:00.000+08:00

BADEN! ( you know where?, i just bet you don't )

we are as alcoholic as how we look
we are as hardcore as how we sound
we are as crazy as how we behave
we are as different as how we stares
lets drink!

insinuating evils of grandeur

2009-04-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

insinuating evils of grandeur

everyone is drawn to that virginia killing sticks behind the counter top.
Tastes... Brands... beautifying as it seems.
life is very much retained within that whole range of gradually appealing and ingratiating packets of tobacco sticks.
you may have learned that one of your personalities is seduced by the illusion of grandeur.
oh yes!, that is it...
that gold packet of king size with a regal insignia
and yes!, what an attractive implication to glamor and wealth
in hindsight, everyone nods.
a subtle suggestion, those alluring sticks are indeed your most royal and loyal friends.
what an absolute lie!
but then, your other personalities make you come to sense and cognizant to the awful puking pictorial illustration of death behind the packet.
then, you held back for a second
debating... contemplating...
you will turn your attention towards the flip slide of discussion
written in bold, haunting black and white, is that statement ( smoking kills )
that these petite size militants of death are in fact trying to take you down and kill you
no one denies , its in fact the truth
oh, beauty is a beguiling call to death and evils
everyone is addicted to the sweet pitch of siren, oh indeed...
what starts sweet end bitter
and what starts bitter ends sweet

THE END!

2009-04-24T13:58:00.000+08:00

THE END!

so, everything about the hype of my showcase is over for now. I finally get a fucking break. But NOT EXACTLY, i am given another task by my brother to organize to sell kids shoes for the upcoming kids fair at expo. when do i exactly get a break?

anyhow, for those who have missed my show and interested in my show...
here are the videos of the 2 songs i sang.

cover song of remembering sunday by ATL

My own chinese song

ABSOLUTE WASTE OF TIME

2009-04-17T11:00:00.000+08:00

ABSOLUTE WASTE OF TIME

never am i gonna expect myself to just sit and watch through the FULL, mind you its really a full rehearsal rundown at the indoor stadium.

to others, you might be fucking jealous because i get to meet all the fucking famous artistes today. start getting jealous. BTW, i have a motive being there too. I'm gonna watch and listen how these artistes screwed up their live. If possible i;m so gonna video down all the horrible moments of their rehearsal; singing off pitch, screaming... - to be anticipated.

I'm off to the rehearsals today. My presence there will be the dumbest as i will only gonna parade on stage and what i dont really get it is that why i need to stay through the whole rehearsals. DARN!

off!

Drop dead tired instead of silent...

2009-04-15T13:51:00.000+08:00

Drop dead tired instead of silent...

Excitement has basically taken over my everything; my sleep and my neutral/negative behavior. Well, i can gladly say that my effort devoted into my practicing over the period wasn't a waste. I'm playing to "remembering sunday" now near to perfect. I'm expecting everyone to clap for me at least a thousand times.

"excuse me, its my first time picking up the guitar learning a full song with a fucking 6/8 beat. fucking tough okay..."

so, i just got a call from school that i have to attend the lee brother's concert and what will i be doing there? Good god, i bet you will laugh out loud. PARADING. yes! Parading on the stage of the singapore indoor stadium. whats the fucking catch to that? okay, i did a opening video shot for the lee brother's concert- the night before my showcase so they need me like appear right on stage right after the opening video is being screened. I'm kindda of stucked in a terrible situation now. but, i'm too lazy to explain here now. kindly, just know that i'm in quite a shit situation.

alright! a BIG REMINDER to all my supporters!

Title: The Starchamp Album Launch
Venue: Heerens, Outside HMV
Time: 4pm
Artiste: ME!
My content: 2 songs (one acoucstic- remembering sunday and the other you go figure on your on during the show)

never happened

2009-04-06T11:51:00.000+08:00

Never happened...

I have tried so hard and much.
the feeling of giving up has pretty much reaches the verge of my head.

i'm very exhausted
i'm very very very exhausted

i have been thinking for days... days and days... its exploding anytime soon
any moment i can just flare up at people

i have had many try outs...
it will just never happen...

( i haven written such a post in a long time)

drink

2009-04-06T00:06:00.000+08:00

Pea Size Liver....

I drank so much over the weekends.
my liver is turning pea size sooonnnn...
OH MY GAWD!!!!

SUNNY RAINYYY

2009-03-31T22:33:00.000+08:00

SUNNYYY .... RAINNYYYYY...

all i know, my nose is running non-stop. I just cant stop blowing my nose and before i know about how much tissue i have left in the box, i actually finished the whole box.

The weather require some attention. It has been going extraordinary crazy. Have you noticed? One moment grey, the other moment sunny and last moment dark; pouring pussies and bitches. I can never tell people what day is today. A day now can be sunny and rainy. I'm so confused, so when people asked i don't know what to tell them.

CAN THE WEATHER MAKE UP HIS MIND? WHETHER TO BE SUNNY OR RAINY! Geeze... taking a piece out of me.

all of a sudden, the viral just invaded my system today but actually it starts its invasion since yesterday. I don't know if i should blame on the weather. however, it seems like the drastic change of the weather is contributing to what i;m suffering now- COLD. I haven't use panadol cold relieve in ages. With the current situation, panadol should help and i don;'t want incur medical expenses. so people, please please please bless me!

sneeze...

Great!, now i start sneezing

so whats good?

2009-03-28T18:47:00.000+08:00

so whats good?

sometime back, i watched Marley and Me, its probably the first film i ever watched in theater that made me teared more than 5 mins. I'm stoked, fucking stoked by how it could get so emotional. definitely hardcore emotional.

some day back this week i watched He is just not into you, and i thought the different scenarios of the few- probably 3 different types of relationships are quite realistic. It kind of a easy understanding film if you are old enough and has experienced relationships.

a little about what i'm doing now.
I have been very very busy with my preparation for the showcase cum album launch next month at Heerens on 19th APRIL 2009 - time : 3pm -5pm.
the preparation has tired the shit out of me. i;m playing the same song everyday and learning the guitar for the same song every single day. I'm very sick of my own song and the cover song i'm doing. UTTERLY SICK! thats why i have just somehow "gotten" like 12 albums this month and listen to them to easeeee my tension. as much as i;m excited for the show but the preparation is INTENSE! really INTENSE. ahhaha

and please come out to support me ! THANK YOU ! THANK YOU!

Updates!

2009-03-21T13:19:00.000+08:00

Updates!

GASP! GASP! GASP!
so, i just learned about my results which were being released yesterday. I allowed Joel to take the honor and view the results for me. no, i'm not afraid of knowing my results. I'm just too excited to know about it. you know, when you are excited, you would love to do something what i did; Let people to find out the results and then guess from their expression on the face to see if it was good or bad.

well obviously to many, my results would have been perceived to be a fucking good. honestly, considering the fact that how much effort i have put in working for the exam. what do you think locking myself inside the room at least from morning 10 am to over midnight, facing the endless words on the notes and breaking almost all my brain cells to understand and figure the notes is like? practically, for the amount of effort i have put in studying i would have expected the results to be way better. SHOCKING!!! very SHOCKING!

OH WELL... my GPA is 3.4583. As of what i would do usually; print screen the results and paste it over the post but the results is not that nice to be publicize on my blog. alternatively, i'm only telling you my collective grades.

Grades: 2 As, 5 Bs ( oh shut up, its not good enough like i said )

ONE BIG THING TO KNOW, I'VE GRADUATED! FINALLY!!!! GOODLORD!
still, i'm gonna celebrate!

oh...

on another note, everyone wish to know what i have been up to? I have been super duper busy preparing for my show coming up next month. I have practicing the guitar almost everyday that i can barely feel my fingers or my fingers can barely feel anything. yeah, about the show, its for the album launch, a compilation album which i was honored to have a individual song in it. coolll right? where will be the album launch? It is at HMV, Heerens. Yesh, sounds like a big thing but i don't think it would ever be as big as real artistes promotions. Anyways, if you are dying to watch me perform and being my good friends, please be there to support me! thanks thanks.

peace out.

Promotion!

2009-03-18T13:03:00.000+08:00

THIS WAY (in Video)!

I'm on promoting Michelle Branch's This Way. In case you don't know, she has gone abit country!

so, there is the fucking awesome video for the new song ( it is not the single, which is according to her). This video is somewhat different from any other music video you could have possibly seen. Taken on digi video handheld cam, btw, what amazing quality it could have turn out to be. The black and white old school effect, thats simply brilliant!

there it is,

THIS WAY - VIDEO PREMIERE

This Way

*credits to Michelle Branch and WB.

Am i always this happy?

2009-03-16T23:05:00.000+08:00

Do i always look this happy?

P.S, I'm really dying to have sausage now! GERMAN... FRENCH.... ( oh shut up , i know what you are thinking! and yes, i;m that obsessed with sausages!) and and i really want to have good food! FIRUS, if you see this ? i WANT GOOD FOOD!

so this way...

2009-03-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

so, THIS WAY...long awaited!

10th March

is about time...

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none other

2009-02-27T14:58:00.000+08:00

none other

than katy perry doing cover of a my favorite band

electric feel.

more english

2009-02-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

more English.

I have a weird obsession with English.

and another obsession with this band

what can i say?

2009-02-22T12:33:00.000+08:00

what can i say?

brilliant!

just watch this Oscar nominated " slumdog millionaire" it has a fucking good theme if you bother to understand the movie. i know, everyone might telling " what is so great about this movie?". a movie has never been great to you if you dont try to understand it, because you twits only love the viuals and make racist jokes about mambai! and please get more brainy!

The remedies

2009-02-18T12:48:00.000+08:00

The remedies

i set aside my books and notes just for some hard laughs.

chi po ka cha oooo...( chinese do sounds like that )

Love is with boobs ( error: BOOKS!)

2009-02-15T12:33:00.000+08:00

Love is with boobs ( error: BOOKS!)

i know what is valentines. It is an excuse to spend your money on overpriced gifts just so to buy someone's love and then realised you have burnt your paycheck for the month away, or for the youngster, who will then live on water and air. albeit as pointless as it may seem to me, valentines day can be invaluable and memorable day, nonetheless only with good food, proper alcohol and HOT sex ( literally). at least that is what i perceive how the day should be spent.

" roses and chocolate doesn't show love but only a token to someone physically there for you on this special day", me.

as far as i know about myself, i'm not romantic neither am i generous enough to take valentines day seriously enough to pull it off by buying gifts and wishing people. honestly, i really dont believe in sending a fresh bouquet of roses to a valentine.i believe that it's only special when you keep everything simple and sweet. looking at the people on the street of the orchard pulling on a fake smile, or merely a smirk, shows how pointless this day can turn out to be.

all i know, instead of busy with studying, i'm facebooking and what now? blogging.

study-phobic.

just checking in

2009-02-09T19:24:00.000+08:00

just checking in

i will drop in some updates since i haven't blogged for so long.
i have been partying and drinking for 2 weekends and this happens only when i'm under ghastly stress. yeah, i know that its not very good to drink it off but what other options that can make me happier? happy pills? is there such a thing? the most, hormone stabilizer. my final exams are just round this corner and i have been feeling very much worried. i know sometimes my worries are not necessary but i know only when i;m worried then i will seriously get my work done. as you mnay have already noticed, i have deliberately stay offline to avoid distractions and i really need to stay focus for my final sprint. and yes, please forgive me for that. i will appear as soon as my paper ends which is on 25th of april.

last note, some people wants to know if i;m okay and yeah, i;m perfectly okay apart from the stress from mugging. oh well, maybe there is something else that is bothering me a little these few days. i will you posted about it if wish to know. i'd to say, its quite complicating for me to think of it now. but, right now i really really have to stay focus on revisions.

peace and xo

I want to be ENGLISH!

2009-01-27T00:30:00.001+08:00

I want to be ENGLISH!

ENGLSH
I love the way how English dresses.
I love how the way an English speaks.
Even its vulgar it doesnt sound like it when it comes out from an English mouth .
I simple love English the way it is.
I just love everything about ENGLISH, don't I?

Fluorescent Adolescent

NAPFA

2009-01-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

A SILVER AWARD

NAPFA is this shit that all guys have to go through to test your physicality. I'm very proud to announce to everyone i know that i have earned myself a Silver Award. I probably didn't believe i have so much potential in being fit until i take this test. HAHHAHAH. Getting a Silver Award isnt just for a show off, its going to grant me an exemption of 3 months NS. Ultimately, i will only have to serve 1 year and 9 months NS. HOLY BLESSED! and FUCK YOU nimrods who thinks i cant get through NAPFA.

Honestly, I'm a man who doesnt kick a big fuss over serving for NS. I don't mind if i have my head shaved and showing my dick head shape like skrull. Also, I'm seeing NS as taking a break from academic studies. I have long for one fucking long academic break and this should be it. The 1 3/4 year long NS will be just nice. So, why kick the big fuss like what other pussies do? I dont care whether the life its tough in camp or what shit. maybe, camps being "dirty" will be my only concern. I've to confess i'm not afraid of horror film but its in comes real, it will take the scary shit out of me. yeah, i can be pussy sometimes but in a more appropriate way.

BUSY

2009-01-14T22:33:00.000+08:00

BUSY

Ho myyy gawddd. I've been so busy and its only the start of the year. you know, i come home everyday dont recognise anything except my bed or the couch in the living room. I'm really really exhausted. I'm sure you can tell when if you had meet me recently. I have horrible eye bags like tea bags. I accidentally fall asleep now and then during the day. I rub my eyes excessively until the contacts came off. nobody will have any idea how exhausted i;m feeling right now except myself.

one thing that i really want now, CHINESE NEW YEAR.
not house visitings but GOOD FOOD and EXTENTIVE SLEEPS.
btw, i have never in my life done house visits during CNY. even thought how traditional my family can get, its never a practice for us.

my 2 favourite UK bands

2009-01-07T23:39:00.001+08:00

my 2 favourite UK bands

that no one shall know, except me.

end bad , start bad.

2009-01-03T16:45:00.000+08:00

end bad , start bad.

honestly, this title is really subjective but i choose to think the worst and it is really horrible.

so year 2008, supposedly to be a year for me filled with joy , hopes and laughters. well, part of it was awesome. unfortunately, the other part was shit and especially towards the end. i suppose also the only resolution i have made which was appeared on FB " Roy is promising himself never date anyone until he graduates" was the only resolution so far. i have no idea why i everything bad has to fall on the last part of 2008 except for emmy's kid ass party. only during the last part of the year i have to deal with motherfucking shit like school work, family and relationship issues. i have to say the relationship issues played a big fucking part. I have to say i need to go to the temple more often to reverse whatever bad luck which was on my side.

the year 2008 wasn't too bad as it sounds above except the very last part of it. It was a really busy year for me doing alot of music and media related stuffs. in case you dont know, or you forgot, i have actually made 3 tv appearance on mediacorp tv but i wasnt excited enough to tell anyone except for the brief mentioning in my blogposts earlier this year. obviously, i cant miss out my second brother's wedding whom he gave me this special chance to make this private performance on his wedding dinner. I have also decided to take this break to Korea which didnt turn out as fun as i thought it would. I was half guggling with whatever issues i have in singapore and the other half enjoying korea. however, i did love and miss korea after i came back. honestly, i thought i will come back all refreshed which i did but everything bad comes in also. so, i meet tons and tons and tons of people this year. KPMG colleagues are the best people i have made friends with this year. i have to say people like lian ying, karen and sock theng really break my horrible days in KPMG. i have also meet great friends like bealson who talks alot of gibberish like me like the other day his FB status rage on " Bealson Tan Ku Ku" which obviously i say he missed out the " jiao" then the whole rage began. Honestly, i'm really quite good in creating rages or making rages prolong itself. the only last part of 2008 wasnt that bad was at emmy's house party. although my mood is like the cock sink to the bottom of the wine bottles, i'm pretty much very satisfied with the looking all red , feeling numb and veins pumping. I was fucking drunk but thank god i didn't pulk- alot of expensive alcohol.

photos,

of cos, my year 2009 resolution will not just the one i mentioned on facebook. There are tons of things i wish to do too.

1. Acoustic Guitar Lesson + owing this awesome Gibson guitar which should cost me a tons.

2. more parties and alochols
3. new hair style. no more emo hair

4. more performances

and 5. make friends with more awesome people.

the week where your luck goes 6 feet down

2008-12-27T18:34:00.000+08:00

the week where your luck goes 6 feet down

everyday, i step out of my house worrying if i'm going to get hit down by a car or get my skull broken by a falling flower pot. How unbelievably, I still managed to lived through a week of bad luck.I have to get worried if my luck this week going to reestablish on the following week. fuck, what has gotten onto me? it had better not be curses.

I honestly think that my week could have been much better off if my laptop don't break down during this crucial week. It is time where i hope i could get drown in alcohol for the entire week and forget this week's adversity. so much to pull off during work for not having a laptop of my own. how pitiful is it not having to chat in disguise on ebuddy using my friend's laptop. what a horrible lack of privacy.

it was this day, this particular day of the week that hit me rotten. it speaks how bad my luck can go in a fucking day. having my wallet happily sitting on the table at home, i was already standing in the train station. I walked my ass back home, pick my wallet and rush to school next. Obliviously, being a really spoilt brat, i love to sit in a compy comfort taxi and sleep my way through to school. did i mention the worst part? i suffered vision lost for 5 seconds after a massive bang against the edge of the car top while entering the cab. no idea how i managed to bang so hardly. that isnt just it, i was freaking late.

as good as everyone should know, i'm still alive.
I would wished that everyone live a happy and best of luck life.
and Happy Holidays !

river-rachael yamagata

peace

you beat me to the punch

2008-12-22T22:39:00.000+08:00

you beat me to the punch

YOU BEAT ME TO THE PUNCH.
LEFT ME IMMOVABLY DEAD.

what should i do?

candy canes

2008-12-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

candy canes

candy canes , candy canes more candy canes
cane cane cane, use it to cane your ass.

imagine more canes.
there

skinny

2008-12-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

skinny

Everyone says "so what fuck are you to be that skinny?"

yeah, i may weigh only 52kg this month.
yeah, i know i'm fucking size zero for guys.
yeah, you are fucking jealous of me.

i'd say " what fuck can you do to a skinny dude?"
you can answer to this i will treat you to starbucks.

and you love to know?
i hate being fucking skinny too.

today is 10 Dec 2008

2008-12-10T18:21:00.000+08:00

today is 10 Dec 2008

i have figured that there is still one more paper left on Friday before i hit on for the holidays.

on the same day,

i've also figured that in my list of highly anticipated things for year 2009 i included this...

i'm glad it's official in exactly 2 months time.

peace.

amazing because it is

2008-11-29T11:22:00.000+08:00

amazing because it is

i have come to a point whereby i don't know what is keeping me up.
how to live like a normal person?
i have been living in a position more complicated than many.
i worry for unnecessary stuffs.
i get annoyed, people around me get irritated.
now, i get really busy with school but it has cost me a lot a lot.
there are so many stuffs out there waiting for me to accomplish.
i barely even have time to go on a love journey, to do what i have to do.
i'm guilty of everything i could possibly think of now.
my life is beautiful but i didn't make it beautiful as it seems.
i need to find myself, my actual self.

the fray.you found me.

I am me

2008-11-10T20:32:00.000+08:00

I am me

I would like to make a gender reminder that I am who i am.
I'm what it takes to be myself.
I'm not someone who anyone can manipulate me easily.
I stand still on my solid land that nothing can move me away.
I am me, be it you can accept it or not.

P.S I would like to thanks those who celebrated my birthday and wished me.
Although much were planned for my birthday but much wasn't accomplished.
still, the blast on my birthday i had was overjoying.
I grew a year older, finally!
I would also like to specially thank my close friends,
Jimmy who celebrated my birthday twice on two different dinner.
Charissa for remembering my birthday and celebrating for it and for your effort you put up in making the birthday dinner blast.
Cheryl for organizing a birthday clubbing so hard. but am so sorry that it didnt happen.
Joel for the 2 dvd box set that i'm so happy with it.
Emmanuel Ng who treat me to this belated birthday lunch at joe corner which the pizza is simple irresistable.
Samuel Tay who called me several times to wish me but my phone died. I'm sorry. But you are always the best!
Bealson who was the first who wished me on the phone although i'm the one who made the call.
Freddie and co for spending the whole night drinking with me.
Jason Ler for being so enthuastic in wishing me and yeah club next month.
Sean who wished on a more sexier pair of legs .
Marie who asked me to club but my phone died. I'm so sorry!
Nash who came to the birthday dinner.
Keith who shares the same birthday day as me! but poor him for working on that day.
Nicholas who treat me to this fantastic Jap food.
and couple of people who saw me and wished me.
THANK YOU SO MUCH! I LOVE EVERYONE OF YOU!

Goblins, zombies and mummies

2008-10-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

Goblins, zombies and mummies

like every year, my birthday falls on the 31 Oct, Halloween. fake zombies, Dracula and evil demons has been my grown up horror figure. I can't believe i have to live with it every year during my birthday. however, as i grew older, the fear went away. now, i dress to this disgusting spooky figures. It's really fun. I'm especially excited for this year's halloween. I actually thought of what to dressed on my birthday.

hold your breath, stay calm and not move. I'm going to dress up to twilight. Hmm, I will do Edward Cullen. I more than qualified to be him. Him, the mesmerizing look, lightning pair of eyes and behaves inexplicably weird- always the strong stare. On top of it, it must be paled faced. and lie about wearing coloured contacts. With such a look, I'm gonna hypnotize all the girls, boys and gays. I contemplating a halloween party and made it a magic or witch party. Should i, should i?

Twilight is so hot now. I'm all crazy about it. especially, it gonna drop by this halloween period. It will be a must to be crazy over it. I haven't have time to complete the twilight series but i will have to. simply, its so fascinating. Its the best descriptive adult horror-novel I have read so far.
dont copy me uh, i have read the book few years back. I'm re-reading it now. I dont know, it wasn't as fascinating as i first read it.

Only Bealson knows the kind of fascinating and mind blowing effect from the book.

I'm seriously gonna have a kick-ass birthday this year. i dont care.
I cant wait to perform trick or treat on you which is much easier since its my birthday.
the treat wont be a easy one i promise.
if not, the trick will be damn successful.
the eyes are following like their's.
watch out.

seriously

2008-10-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

seriously.

A real loud" seriously!?!" that puzzled me the whole fucking morning.
what has seriously gotten onto me.
unbelievably, i have the worst day of the week ever.
first, i woke up with a shocked by my mother weak voice hovering around me for at least 2 seconds.
" don't you have school today? what time now? "
second, i was at a total stead of blurriness and couldn't react on anything. I really actually thought that I weren't late for school.
i woke up exactly at 9am which my class also starts exactly at 9am.
so, i rushed down with a cab.
but the ride on the cab wasn't a smooth one. honestly, why is luck turning bad on me only today, on every single fucking thing.
The fucking highways to jurong have to fucking jam like strawberry jam. SERIOUSLY, i'm somehow trap in the cab like a lost cat. i asked the driver, he dont know either. all the alternative route that he could possibly take is jammed like fuck.why? the highways to the west either was having an accidents if not road works.
he do know the rates are jumping every single second. he got a little worried for me. i could see it since he noticed my sustained attention on the meter when is already hits 18 bucks.
then, when i finally got away from the fucking jam, the meter hits more than 20 bucks. fucking innit?
SERIOUSLY, what a pain the day has brought me. I thought at least I missed half an hour of lesson but now i have to fucking go for a make up class tomorrow when i can happily ends school at 1 pm. fucking shit.
and obviously, this has fucking taught me a lesson that i should seriously not depend on my phone for alarm. it fucking did not ring today which i'm really sure off.

a week before, a week ahead.

2008-10-19T14:55:00.000+08:00

a week before, a week ahead.

a week before, on the first day, it was this chill in the morning that woke me up.
it was really a chilly morning that i almost couldn't feel my feet.
a fucked up morning, all known. after brushing teeth and make way for school.
it could have been better First lesson if i do no have to answer questions and listen to Edwin ( WISP tutor ) to brag about his working experience as a Junior College teacher- that was all in his past that no one is interested in knowing.
you step into poly, you be a poly teacher. That was the instant and direct dart i wished i could aim at his head.

I have no idea how to go about talking about the adjustments in my normal life. everything seems and feels mundane. however, bizarrely as it sounds from me, i started to like such a life.
a life now that i only have to worry about my studies. the things i look forward to are tests and exams. i know what you are thinking of me now. no, don't even judge on that. I think its like a rest for me from everything this year. It has been a eventful year and i'm actually looking for this period where it starts toning down and gets a little mundane.

this year has been a very good year and also a less bad year. i hope its gonna be re-enacted next year again. hopefully, throughout my life, the years gonna be stucked around like this year. its well balanced. good times and bad times all structured and spread properly during the year. i dont know, maybe the worst has yet to come for the year. I'm speaking base on now.

oh well...

OHOH, i'm hooked twilight- an adult horror. it quite a good reading stuffs to kill overly mundane times. the only times i hate is overly mundane times, i just stick out the book to destruct it.

OHOH, people who hasnt watch rock and rolla should really watch. i warn, you better know enough english to watch it. its a awesomely smart flim. people setting up on each other. exciting enought to keep you suspended throughout the entire movie. if you dont get the film, it might just be a boring film for you.

Korea Korea

2008-10-09T14:00:00.000+08:00

Korea Korea

As you have seen me online these few days and might have guessed I'm back even if you or I haven't talked to you. Right after i alighted the plane, the next day is a busy day - there were gazillion of things to unpack and mingle. The busy days lasted all the way through till today and finally I have a chance to blog.

Days in Korea were amazingly amazing. I have learnt to forget any sorrowful and depressing things had happened in the past. I have allowed myself to full enjoyment, recuperation and rejuvenation in the 6 days- holidays. I love this accomplishment and I never had a chance to until then. The point where I stepped out of Incheon International Airport, I took this deep deep breathe of fresh air (air in singapore never have been that fresh ) and it instantly invigorate my entire lung and body. I felt like everything bad had been dropped way behind me and so much lighten with not a single burden tangling around me. Especially after the world steepest rollar coaster ride, Express, I really feel i lose everything that miserable in me for years. For the first time, i felt so refreshed and worry-less.

There were so much to talk about Korea. Let's begin with the people.

Koreans are really healthy. Everything about them is healthy. Healthy diet, Healthy skin, Healthy body, Healthy food and Healthy weather. Korean's skin are flawless and what caught my attention is everyone's lushy black hair- they probably bathe in Ginseng soap everyday.

The reason to their flawless skin is due to their healthy body. The healthy body begins with heathly diet which they eat Kimchi every meal. Kimchi is known as the world top 5 healthiest and most nutritious food which contains pre-btiotics like in yakult that clears your intestines. It really did make me shit more than last time- yesh, i bought a few packets of kimchi. People who knows me knows that I'm healthy.

Koreans are so pretty in nature depsite everyone thinks the plastic surgory is the main auxiliary to them looking good. I'd to defer from the sterotypical mindset of it. Koreans dress so well and the dressing alone make them look so good. Who in the hell would wear heels to climb mountain? Who in the hell wears panty hose around the streets in the cold weather? Koreans did. Just the dressing alone already wins any singaporean with the tacky and thrashy outfits patrolling in town.

Korean food is alot alot more than just kimchi. Its ginseng. Ginseng imparts vigor and revitalised you and make you less prone to illness and weak body. You probably think eating ginseng is sick but when you actually tried it you know how you want it so badly next. Ginseng in milk taste so good. Ginseng chicken soup is the best soup i have ever taken. Simply put, Ginseng makes you stronger.

Koreans are culturely similar to chinese however much much much more responsible and civilised than chinese. As a chinese, i'm so ashame to say such a thing. However, their proficiency in English is not that great. In the airport toilet i found this line " Please do not throw anything except toilet paper into the TOILET to prevent blockage" HAHAHHA. yeah, thats how hilarious of it.

and for the rest of about korea, let the pictures below tell you.

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Never like this addictive!

2008-09-27T18:08:00.000+08:00

Never like this addictive!

sugababes " GIRLS" is duper addictive song.
but the MV is for it is really hilarious.
yeah, i'm quick in music stuffs.

it's nothing like this good.

2008-09-26T16:24:00.000+08:00

it's nothing like this good.

this is horrifyingly good. I'm totally in love with it.
It's a my recommend must own before the year 2008 ends.
that is

JAMES MORRISON'S
" Song for you, Truth for me " album
featuring " You Make It Real " and " Broken String " - must LISTEN!

preview of " you make it real"

P.S I don't just listen to rock.

GIMME GIMME GIMME A MAN AFTER MIDNIGHT!

2008-09-24T01:09:00.000+08:00

GIMME GIMME GIMME A MAN AFTER MIDNIGHT!

I'm so addicted to this song.
go figured out what is this.

best, i haven even caught the movie of it.
i will do before i head for Korea.

I'm geek happy today!

2008-09-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

I'm geek happy today!

that little stupid english voice!

2008-09-14T13:27:00.000+08:00

that little stupid english voice!

it could easily have been passed as a dumbest plot in a movie ( forgetting sarah marshall, oh, dumb shit and you guys should seriously watch the unrated version. alot to reveal. ) but RUSSELL BRAND pulled it off really shit hilariously. the fucking on the horse fuck scene, I finally saw it Jimmy.

there,

I'm quite happy with the film despite it isn't that kick-ass funny as any jackass movies. oh well, its quite a sexual active film as well. for those whoes life is only about having sex, weekend 9 bucks ticket gets you a little kick.

i love really do love this girl. definitely not the trashy blonde.

mila kunis

I want this!

2008-09-11T17:25:00.001+08:00

I want this badly!

I don't care

2008-09-09T13:03:00.000+08:00

i don't care

Listen to " I don't care " from FOB and you wouldn't care about everything else. i promise.
cos, Britney won the best female video of the year. who cares about the rest?
"I don't care! " " I don't care!" " I don't care!"

Witness

2008-09-08T12:11:00.001+08:00

Witness

every time i learned about someone's fatal, the more I would treasure my life while i'm still alive.

its really hard to believe how nature is poise in such a manner. its even harder to believe how life can be so frangible even thought it meant to be this way. everyone would leave for a reason, if one had to. death, be it natural or unnatural cause, its a way to relief the pain and worries. i really hope that anyone who is facing one can treat it positively. even if you had to leave your love ones, leave neutrally and wish and hope for them to live happily.

additionally, everyone should treasure each other at least when they are still living. one horrible regretful mistake we always make is to not realised the importance of anything or anyone until they are no longer existing. one thing we should all learn is that embrace and love each other (esp. family and friends)while we still could.

my love for my vocal instructor, Nicole Lai.
my deepest wish, R.I.P.

everything losses it's meaning

2008-09-06T13:47:00.000+08:00

everything loses it's meaning

i just had an absolute intense conversation with my brother just now about my attitude towards my family these days. it almost got me to the verge of breaking down, that intense. so, i was told i have been very impatient with them even in a slightest aggravated conversation . obviously, i denied and defended for myself.

later, my thoughts just ran mad after the verbal fight with him. I just had a thought on why am i reacting so impatiently to them. like, what else more can i ask from my family who has been the best prototype. although, I always bare some resentments of my family. However, deeply I love my family more than anything else. Not because blood is thicker than water, but it's the heart to heart development between us since i was born.

when i had that conversation with my elder brother, i was telling myself inside, they know nuts about what i have been going through but all they know is how to pick on my attitude. later, i got really nervous, but still i stare straight into my brother's eye when he talks. it always seem as thought whatever they tell me is right and i'm wrong. ( i know its a kiddish thought but it always seems like it ) In another sense, I totally have no say in this family.

they claimed to have provided me the best of what they can give but in actual fact its all material possession which content me on the surface. they always claimed i don't listen to them but since when have they ever listen to me. whatever, i say to them is just gibberish and nonsensical. I'm only thankful that they are supportive of what i do and i always proudly relate it to all my friends . however, is that it about in a family? Being supportive and provide you with what you want?

deep in actual fact, i'm the only one always listen to them and they will never notice it. In every human race, we only notice the bad of someone and never the good. i forgive them for that because i practise the same sort. but, i really do hope that they realise whatever bad i have done is also what they have been doing too.

i have hidden so much from them too and i'm pretty guilty of that. Something are ment to be keep kept only to myself. I'm very sure that they have been keeping things from me too.

well, i can lose anything but i can never lose my family. i just can't.

and be shocking for VMA 2008,
britney

catch me on tv.

2008-09-04T18:48:00.000+08:00

catch me on tv.

so, everyone wish to know what i have bee up to?
music and acting.

Music:
I have been singing covers-demos.
In addition, perfecting my individual song. as soon as, it gets mastered and mixed, iwill let people who request to listen.

Acting:
A channel 8 chinese show which will air during october.
( The shoot was absolutely tiring. Alot alot takes to get different angles. Hopefully, i will look good because i woke up early today with a horrible dark ring around my eyes area )
A critic on mooncakes for channel U's reality show airing this month.

- i'm building my personal profile. and earn money by bits by doing all those above.

This is what i want

2008-09-01T14:28:00.001+08:00

This is what i want

vanilla blended

100% fattening
but 100% indulgence.
esp. after i screwed up everything. i really need it.

I fuck can't wait

2008-09-01T02:19:00.000+08:00

I fuck can't wait ...

TO AMAZING KOREA ( IN ONE MONTHS TIME). Its the only time i wished that time flies quickly.

It's time to explore the other side of the world. The horrifying, depressing and disappointing shit land i'm laying on; and born on is not going to deserve any shit respect from me. What is disappointing is not the land itself but the disgusting shameful people. ( esp. the people who fucking roll their eyes on me cos i bang against them to get into further into the train cabin which their pea brain is just dumbful enough for them to show people that they are fucking hell cum-shot shitass that only could fuck around, the only movement they know) . please tell me, how disappointing can it not get? I'm so ashame; ASHAME!

so what was i doing ?
learnt : HOLA! ALOHA! SHALOM!
( "hello" in different languages. ) I'm not exactly bumming at home.

goodness, look at this

in no time man.

the remake of Hairspray

2008-08-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

the remake of Hairspray

"you can't stop the beat"... you can't stop what fun i'm having for the week.
so much racist, sexist, bimbotic, randomness and hard laughter.
oh please, i dance in front of a crowd for the first time- fucking big deal.

i have photos with my favorites

modest life

2008-08-12T12:36:00.000+08:00

modest life

that could only be seen during the primitive era. During this present epoch, everyone lives luxuriously in a world filled with vanity and egotism. What in the past when human poach on animals for food is what we see now as cruelty. Humans in the early age walk around naked hunting and animals were more adventurous and wild praying on other species. Why present is such a contradiction to the past ? What are we exactly proving? Are we trying to prove that we learn from mistakes and not make them again?

Answer: At the same time we are trying to prove we have moved on from what we have learnt but we never admit that we have created more disastrous complexed life.

Think: what do you say?

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Sitting down at the starbucks enjoying a piece of new york cheese cake and a cup of latte its what my life intend to be- this simple. at least, it is what i always want it to be.

I seriously need a break from everything now. The horrid situations are haunting me yet again. I'm stucked in almost all aspects of my life- relationship, friendship and family-ship.

I never realised how i am full of myself all the time. Maybe, i see it clearly all that this naive earth i'm living in doesn't spare my consideration and care on how people feels. Call me narcissistic or self-centered. I do love myself more than anyone else. I claim regretting to live in such a manner. When people treats me indifferently, they have never thought of what i would feel and react. Again, who is there for me when i'm in my deepest shit? Thats why i have been independently solving my problems myself.

I'm always the one turning the facts around and choose not to believe whatever is going on its the truth to everything. I listen to myself more than i listen to others. My verdict is friends and family are there to guild you to realize what you have not realised in the past.

I really need a break from everything.

sunday

2008-08-11T00:32:00.000+08:00

sunday...

sunday, isnt sunny after all.
well, just as i never thought i will do black.
i still did it.

hair.

today

2008-08-08T12:01:00.000+08:00

today...

its my third time running for the week. well, NAPFA it really near. and seems like i can only fully train during the holidays but still i get really busy during holidays. like, i have a recording to make for later. i was asked to record a song composed by one of hwa choong institution student. BTW, i only have to morning to exercise. PAID 50 buckaroos an hour!

you see, i don't think this holiday i need a part time job. I get paid every now and then doing demos and covers. unfortunately, there will always be this opportunity cost that i have to incur. its really costly as i might risk so much away, could be friendship, relationship. oh well, my life its poised this way, i can't help.

i dont have a proper holiday this coming one. i dont even have a proper day to slack. its the most miserable thing that could have ever happened to my life if i don't have a day off to slack. i almost don't miss anything or anyone except sleeping and resting. i really do need a good break from everything. soooo, i booked the tickets to KOREA!!!!! beat it yeahh! though, it could been seen as a tone down holiday.

" all the sceneric places, boring...." at least, thats what i'm expecting it to be.

"together"

I'm Fucking excited

2008-08-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

I'm Fucking excited...

cos, i have been anticipating and someone i idolize is back!
just take the guess who that will be.
she wrote a song to a movie.
i'm blasting it, ONLY IT NOW.

oh mean... i'm so fucking busy too. recording recording and recording.
soon it will be ... rehearsal rehearsal and rehearsal.
btw, i'm still falling sick.
i miss my poly-mates a hella.

this is how...

2008-07-30T22:46:00.000+08:00

This is how...

i look like ...

when i'm fucking sick.
i really love the soup spoon.
esp what i favour for one particular soup.
i wont tell you which soup.

free day

2008-07-23T13:24:00.000+08:00

Free day

not exactly. skipped work? not exactly, I have applied for a day leave from work. I never knew how dumb I can be after i realised that i am entitled to a 5 day leave from work throughout my whole internship yesterday.

A little living note of myself.

I have a recording session to perform for the rest of day at boat quay. I'm recording for a song with a bunch for some chinese international film. It's a pretty big deal. Whats bigger deal is that i was chosen to be the one to be part of it. How awesome can it not be?

My weeks have been really really bashed up with interview, performance, interviews and more performances. It is incredibly torturous to even have to work at some problem infested company which things can never work out. as yet, i'm not dying but really tired. I guess, the excitement is keeping me all up- in an appropriate matter.

fucked up

2008-07-22T22:39:00.000+08:00

fucked up

i've no idea how fucked up my work can get.
the last two weeks but fucked miserable and torturous
last note, i did break down ( old, quiet and yellowish staircase )

i dont need to answer.

shits

2008-07-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

shits

it really felt like i have constipation for more than a week. not literally. shit just doesn't get out of me.
i just don't understand why do i have to put up so much shit this month.
work is one pile of shit.
personal life is another.
i'm shit busy. -singing shit.
i'm shit tired. - working shit.
it's time to blast some shit good hardcore music.

LOSTPROPHETS.

THERE FOR TOMORROW.

KATY PERRY.

p.s
i'm really really very tired. i need some really quiet moments.
thanks lian ying for the history boys.

so what now?

2008-07-04T15:38:00.001+08:00

so what now?

For the past weeks, I have desperately tried to find glory to myself. The glory of joy and fun. I always knew that whatever I have now is soon to be fading away. I'm already losing it half. All the more I have the reason to find new ones and replace them. Not a substitute but a replacement.

later then i realized, things get out of your hand. It overwhelms you. I learned that what I have done its purely wrong.

as much as how I like leading my own life, I hate it too. I just couldn't poise my life in a sane and normal matter. a minute ago, its all overwhelming and spontaneous but the other is all somberly annoying.

i'm tired

i'm energetic

i'm all

katy perry - thinking of you

3 besties

2008-06-28T13:44:00.000+08:00

3 besties

the photos speak its own.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

The most pathetic yet indulgence yoghurt cake.

Lights grow on Jimmy's face.

we are very happy people

"Its char's tradition to get cake." It's so hilarious

Fun shoots.

lastly, something that no one should miss.
we all laugh really alot. photos turn out blurred.

Trying

2008-06-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

Trying

Grateful. How could i not?
When i start to doubt myself, there is always something that brings me back all the time.
I'd say i'm blessed all the time.I have truly understand that one should learn how to accept everything that is set out for you.Everything and every moment in your life doesn't need a reason to happen.Everything just comes and goes.

I'm always back tracking. Thinking how much have i changed every year, week, day, hour, minute and second. Its a new century that we live in. There is no such thing as try to be yourself. You meet different people, you be different person. Thats the most challenging of all, absolutely. But, most importantly even though you felt like you are a fake, you have to know what you are doing all the time.

Its the painful month of all months. I have so much losses and gains in just a month. I have no idea how i have pull through all these while, the pain and misery. It's always unbearable.

Just a week ago, my best friend who lost someone because fate of death just decide to land upon that person. I never had myself felt so sorry. Whatever she is going through is what i can never understand and experience. But I'm happy that she is taking everything strongly which in a way leave me with no worries.

It has been also an eventful month of all months. I had my recording completed. and many more that i wish i had share with everyone but i'm so lazy to. one thing i felt really odd is that people start to treasure me more than i treasure them. they chose to stick very closely to me now. they have never been. They have been asking me out and want to talk to me so badly about their miserable life.

It Jimmy's Birthday this month. I have known her almost for 2 years and a half. I truly regard her as my closest friend of all. I know how much she treasure this friendship too. It was so grate and amazing to learn that even though we don't meet in school everyday ever and anymore but we are still close enough to talk about all craps and dungs. She listen to me more than anyone does. She understands me more than anyone could possibly understand. We talked about so much things that not anyone could have been able to do so. We talked so much. I simply love you Jimmy! My life could have been much more worst without your presence. I learnt.

=)
* a smiley for my life*

25th May 2008

2008-06-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

25th May 2008

FINALLY!
Marks Lionel's ( My Brother's) and Lynn ( Sister- in- Law) life time wedding.
I performed of course.
Am so happy for them.

Turn shit into gold!

2008-06-07T14:24:00.000+08:00

Turn shit into gold!

No. I'm not upset with anything right now.
I'm perfectly abnormal you might say.
But it doesn't matter to anyone, does it?

I'm home-sick for almost a week.
I love my mummy's food.
I love my daddy's humor.
I love my brother's surprises.
I love my bedroom's atmospheric coziness.

In fact, i don't need a human love to bless me to be happy all the time.
everyone can have a girlfriend and boyfriend.
does it necessary means LOVE?

i put you in, you put me out.
i fill you in, you fill me out.

sex is back!

2008-06-02T22:17:00.000+08:00

Sex is back!

The long awaited legendary Carrie, Samantha, Miranda and Charlotte is back with their follow up drama " Sex and The City" which now features as a film. Its what girls would be crazy to watch. Like how these screamings came about in the cinema even before the movie could start.

well, i'm pretty fine with the movie except how much these used to be young chicks turn into mama look with wanna-be labelled designer wears. ( aww, just like any models) Of course, the most important isn't how they dress but how they can still be white young chicks again in the movie. unfortunately, they have all failed. despite that, the sexual scenes just brought everything together again- yummy

Visual Worth - X X X X

Money Worth - X X 1/2

Totally on a different note, i had the best dinner at Brozeit ( located at vivo ) that serves the best sausages on earth ( german sausages ). how scrumptious can it not be? With the best cooling german beer washing down together with the sausages. It plain heavenly. I haven had heaven for a long time.

Bashed up week.

2008-05-17T10:22:00.001+08:00

Bashed up week.

I'm still in the midst of my bashed up week. What am I bashed with?

With never-ending workload.

With so much never-lasting excitements (in an appropriate manner in case you are wondering)

It will be the first time I get so overwhelmed with stuffs I like and dislike to do.

I have had my groomed at casey's salon which was known to be on equivalent status as david gan's passion. I will have pictures up on the whole process my hair-makeover

Next up will be recording which I have just gotten my individual song. OMG! you won't know the excitement of it.

Next Next up will be photo-shoot. A proper professional photo-shoot. beat it!

Preparation for my brother's wedding which on the day I will be performing solo but with my bestest friend, CHARISSA on the frontline playing music. I will be singing LOVE by Nat King Cole and The Game of Love by Michelle Branch ( know you I always can't skip michelle branch off my list).

I'm fully booked almost everyday all the way to weekends.

Club Entry.

2008-05-12T21:31:00.000+08:00

Club Entry.

st james powerhouse smells really extravagant with my most glamorous vomit.
i promise, no more clubbing for me. or at least no more crazy drinking. p.s i did nothing wrong .

just spot the lobster in the photos.

Really drunk....
KPMG BUNCH...

Album Swept

2008-04-30T14:41:00.000+08:00

Album Swept

I've been waiting for such a period and seems like artistes can't wait to break back into the music scene and show what they have for music- culturalised world. How is it possible that can live without music in such boring, miserable , lifeless and plain world. I will not tolerate obviously. My ears are just shouting to listen to new music. Which i have to say this spring/summer is highly anticipated for music. just music.

First to start with
Michelle Branch- btw i'm still blasting her old songs. They are as new as ever. I just can't wait for her comeback. I have heard some of her new songs. It is magnificently incredible. she can do any genre.

"Today is a very bittersweet day. I am finally finished with my record. (Well, we still have to mix and master but I'm done!)" ,michelle
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Forever The Sickest Kids- I have been waiting for their album like ages. if you like to say they sound like any other bands, I think you really suck at music.
Rating : *****
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Mariah Carey- I don't care whether she is over-rated or not but the comeback with follow-up sexy music just irresistible.
Rating: ****1/2*

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Ashlee Simpson- If you think she can't sing then so be it. But the music is sooo catchy. I'm listening to it alot now. beat it!
Rating :****1/2*
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Madonna- I thought some songs are "hard candy" while some are not. not bad still.

Rating: ***1/2*
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Jason Mraz- this is long anticipated with Charissa.

Augustana- still the same. same good genre. same good voice.
Rating:****

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lonesome

2008-04-20T13:48:00.001+08:00

Lonesome

I hate being lonesome. you have no idea that feeling of not even a heart close companion to throw your bitches at. you have no idea how annoying when some things I want for never appears but some things I don't wish for overwhelmingly bash at me. everything comes and goes.

i really hate being lonesome and i definitely know am big enough to live by myself but its also good to have someone to depend on besides my family.

i love listening to depressive songs. they speak every piece of my life bringing their pieces close to my heart. i will never know what others would think of me and i don't really care.

its really all hard to not stay lonesome.

have i mentioned ? what i bring about to everyone and everywhere comes back to me.

i really really hate being lonesome. i really want tears. the bitter rather than salty tears.

I REALLY REALLY CAN'T TOLERATE LONESOME.

hey guys.

2008-04-19T13:13:00.001+08:00

hey guys

People I know have been really caring towards me. I am really grateful of of everything and everyone around me.

Work has put me together and so much more to learn. so many to watch. so many to process and digest. its really exciting. despite that it really hasn't been very smooth, its the willingness to learn and money that keeps me going. that's really work life, you work for money unless you are doing something that money its not a consideration then its something more worthwhile. Working as a auditor is really dead. really dead. repetitive dead.

LEARNT. Interpersonal skills are really important. you know that its no longer the i'm in school and I can be nobody and no one will care. you gotta fight for everything and impress. make that perfect presence in front of everyone. put on that facade.

I would say the toughest part is to study each and everyone and their psychology variances that differ from people to people. This is what keeps work really exciting. Technical skills can be picked up easily and be learnt from books but interpersonal skills are really challenging and an independent variable.

work is still tolerable and I'm learning so much. I'm happy with everything.well, at least there is a consistency in my life. weekdays work, weekends play. on and off.

life's short, embrace.

What's next?

2008-04-02T14:57:00.001+08:00

Now that April's Fool is over, what's next?

I think for yet another time in my life, I have made a wrong move. A move that only i wish that i wouldn't have taken. A move that i regretted the most and to my worst disappointment. A move which was what i foresee that there might be hopes yet turn out to be a despair.

It has all gotten the shit out of me. Putting off all these unbearable subjects in my life just gets me break down all the time, inside out. I only wish for a better balance in my life. One that i have good and bad time where I have nothing to feel regretful about.

love is just what it takes to be a killer, so does hatred?

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i'm working like a bull and now falling sick like a weak bird.

looking forward to the coming Thursday.

Happy Belated April Fool and to those who didn't get it from me you are just plain lucky!

lay me down

2008-03-29T00:36:00.001+08:00

LAY ME DOWN...

" i'm lonely.."

Heart thinks

2008-03-16T18:47:00.001+08:00

Heart thinks

Hatred bounds ...... to Love.